So i am having an anxiety attack.  About a month ago i put in a scholarship application to do a cultural exchange program through the Rotary Clubs to go to Bangledesh.  They pay for everything and you take a month of work and go visit government organizations, NGOs, participate in activities. SOunded neat and i didn’t think i had a chance.  Didn’t really think about it.

 Now i am a final candidate!!  I shoudl be excited but instead i had this feeling of dread.  THe first bad thing was that i heard you are billeted in a host family.  The second is that i went on the internet and there are some pretty bad country warnings.  The Canadian government isn’t so bad but the Australian one advises not to travel to Bangladesh because there are threats of suicide bombers. 

THe thought of having my leg blown off, sleeping in a home with possibly some creepy man.  I kinda thought it would be residences where you would have some space and freedom.

I guess i shoudl go to the final interview and ask lots of questions and not panic about it until then.  It woudl be a lifechanging experience i am sure but why does it feel so wrong. I am i just a big chicken now. or have i learned from going to northern africa, peru, guatamala that travelling isn’t fun if you are scared and can’t control your environment.

What do you think? AM i becoming a chicken?